A new day wakeEndless times, new days awake.
To find what shelter the good lord hath made.
A story there, a soft kiss here
The lords great love is always near.
breathlessWould you run?
when I begged you to never look back.
Would you hide?
when I feared you were to be harmed.
Would you lie?
When I thought it could save your life.
Would you smile?
If I told you that I was joyus.
Would you laugh?
If I told you a joke.
Would you dance?
If I asked you to dance with me.
Would you sing?
If I couldnt sleep.
Would you say you loved me?
If I said it too.
Would you be honest?
If I asked about my sanity.
Would you cry?
If I told you I was dying.
Would you hug me?
If I told you I was feeling down.
Would you hold me?
If I was falling apart.
Would you rock me?
If I had a nightmare.
Would you catch me?
If I was falling.
If I needed you now.
If I wanted to find you.
If I needed protection.
If it was going to the last thing I ever saw.
If I needed to hear your voice.
If the moon was just right.
If I needed to sleep.
Would you cry?
If I was leaving.
If I was never coming back.
every dreamThe sweet affection.
The divine connection.
The song of a night sky
suspended high above me.
Dancing waters and talking trees
running across all the waters of the sea.
flying through blue skys
on a silver feather.
flying higher than ever
sing on ever and ever
Light soaked flowers
and love blushed faces
Never again will any sorrow wreck these magical places!
My mother can sing from the mountains
My father can listen from the trees
My sister can paint all the flowers
any color will please.
My vision is slowly fading
But the dream will stay true
Every sweetest moment
Will remind me of you.
pretending realityI'll close my eyes, and pretend im weighless
then maybe I can get some sleep.
I'll plug my ears and sing
then maybe I'll be able to fly away.
How many times have I been brough to my knees
Begging for help and crying in the rain
How many times have I been broken
thrown into a mess that I could never controll.
How many times have I crawled from the wrechage
of a silent collapse inside me, hoping that it would have been the last.
The sweet madness.
The perfect calamity.
The divine tragity.
I pray for the day
The one time I will fall
and be caught.
In the arms of angles I could sleep.
In the palm of heaven I could lie.
I spend my time waiting.
For the reason.
The break that would heal.
For the empty hearts to fill.
One person that could look at me
and not turn their head.
The endlessness that I feel,
caught in the strings of a marionette
Suspended in the time it will take
for my angel to come and fly me away from here.
singing the words of musicFly though oceans on a silver spoon
Stay out at night and dance with the moon
Soar with the clouds at dawns break
walk on the water at your own stake
Sit with Jesus in the heaven above
watch the angels pour waters of love
Watch the sunrise on top a trapeze stake
run through a jungle when its wet with rain.
Climb a mountain in the middle of fall
and stand on its edge and shout a call
Walk through a market in the middle of the day
and take a stranger out to see the bay.
An old guitar plays a mellow tune
I know i promised I'd be home soon
These hours mean more than any
and I wish for more than many
soar away in a cloud gray
and let them say what they may.
Wishing it was a dream
I want to scream
I want to collapse onto the floor
I want to sob as loud as I can
I want to run outside into the crisp air
and throw my head back and scream at the sky.
But the room is to tight,
I dont want to move
But over all I want out.
I just. want. out.
I clutch my hands tightly under my chin.
I bite my fist, trying to keep my sobs quiet.
'oh god, oh god, dear lord, help me, please help me, please!'
My breath is coming in frantic gasps that I cant control.
Desperately I turn the nob of the door slowly and slip behind it
closing it quietly.
I turn to the last door and my heart sinks.
The dogs will bark
and my mother, my father
they'll all see me like this.
They'll be mad I was ease dropping.
'oh god oh god, heavenly father i need you!'
'more now than I have ever before! oh please just help me!'
I let my cries escape a little louder, but what If they can hear me?
I slip back to the kitchen silently.
The bad news and heart crushing grief continues to slid out in mumbles fr
uninvitedGone am I.
Any letter I ever wrote
Any object bearing my name
Any one I every knew
Any one I every loved
will come up blank.
will never be answered.
will remain cold
Mine will remain still.
Every thought of me
will slip away.
Every picture of me
will be buried.
Every thing I own
will be stolen.
Its sad really.
They dont believe me.
when I talk to them
about who I was.
Before I disapeared.
But its hard to mourn the disapearence of some one
who never existed.
Because I never did.