A new day wakeEndless times, new days awake.To find what shelter the good lord hath made.A story there, a soft kiss hereThe lords great love is always near.
breathlessWould you run?when I begged you to never look back.Would you hide?when I feared you were to be harmed.Would you lie?When I thought it could save your life.Would you smile?If I told you that I was joyus.Would you laugh?If I told you a joke.Would you dance?If I asked you to dance with me.Would you sing?If I couldnt sleep.Would you say you loved me?If I said it too.Would you be honest?If I asked about my sanity.Would you cry?If I told you I was dying.Would you hug me?If I told you I was feeling down.Would you hold me?If I was falling apart.Would you rock me?If I had a nightmare.Would you catch me?If I was falling.would you......Run.If I needed you now.Hide.If I wanted to find you.Lie.If I needed protection.Smile.If it was going to the last thing I ever saw.Laugh.If I needed to hear your voice.Dance.If the moon was just right.sing.If I needed to sleep.Would you cry?If I was leaving.If I was never coming back.
every dreamThe sweet affection.The divine connection.The song of a night skysuspended high above me.Dancing waters and talking treesrunning across all the waters of the sea.flying through blue skyson a silver feather.flying higher than eversing on ever and everLight soaked flowersand love blushed facesNever again will any sorrow wreck these magical places!My mother can sing from the mountainsMy father can listen from the treesMy sister can paint all the flowersany color will please.My vision is slowly fadingBut the dream will stay trueEvery sweetest momentWill remind me of you.
pretending realityI'll close my eyes, and pretend im weighlessthen maybe I can get some sleep.I'll plug my ears and singthen maybe I'll be able to fly away.How many times have I been brough to my kneesBegging for help and crying in the rainHow many times have I been brokenthrown into a mess that I could never controll.How many times have I crawled from the wrechageof a silent collapse inside me, hoping that it would have been the last.The sweet madness.The perfect calamity.The divine tragity.I pray for the dayThe hourThe monthThe one time I will falland be caught.In the arms of angles I could sleep.In the palm of heaven I could lie.I spend my time waiting.For the reason.The break that would heal.For the empty hearts to fill.One person that could look at meand not turn their head.The endlessness that I feel,caught in the strings of a marionetteI hang.Suspended in the time it will takefor my angel to come and fly me away from here.
singing the words of musicFly though oceans on a silver spoonStay out at night and dance with the moonSoar with the clouds at dawns breakwalk on the water at your own stakeSit with Jesus in the heaven abovewatch the angels pour waters of loveWatch the sunrise on top a trapeze stakerun through a jungle when its wet with rain.Climb a mountain in the middle of falland stand on its edge and shout a callWalk through a market in the middle of the dayand take a stranger out to see the bay.An old guitar plays a mellow tuneI know i promised I'd be home soonThese hours mean more than anyand I wish for more than manysoar away in a cloud grayand let them say what they may.
Wishing it was a dreamI want to screamI want to collapse onto the floorI want to sob as loud as I canI want to run outside into the crisp airand throw my head back and scream at the sky.But the room is to tight,I dont want to moveor breath.But over all I want out.I just. want. out.I clutch my hands tightly under my chin.I bite my fist, trying to keep my sobs quiet.'oh god, oh god, dear lord, help me, please help me, please!'My breath is coming in frantic gasps that I cant control.Desperately I turn the nob of the door slowly and slip behind itclosing it quietly.I turn to the last door and my heart sinks.The dogs will barkand my mother, my fatherthey'll all see me like this.They'll be mad I was ease dropping.'oh god oh god, heavenly father i need you!''more now than I have ever before! oh please just help me!'I let my cries escape a little louder, but what If they can hear me?I slip back to the kitchen silently.The bad news and heart crushing grief continues to slid out in mumbles fr
uninvitedGone am I.Every trace.Every word.Any letter I ever wroteBurned.Any object bearing my nameDestoryed.Any one I every knewForgotten.Any one I every lovedGone.Any searchwill come up blank.Any flyerswill never be answered.Every heartwill remain coldMine will remain still.Every thought of mewill slip away.Every picture of mewill be buried.Every thing I ownwill be stolen. Its sad really.They dont believe me.when I talk to themabout who I was.Before I disapeared.But its hard to mourn the disapearence of some onewho never existed.Because I never did.